Snakeprint sweater: BCBG Max Azria (last season, similar here) // White skinny denim: Gap (last season, similar here) // Black leather wedges: Steve Madden (last season, similar here) // Woven chain necklace: Forever21 // Black leather wristlet: Coach // Black cateye sunglasses: Target
If you don’t enjoy it, don’t do it.
Essentially, that motto simplifies one of the beliefs by which I have guided my life. It has helped me change much of the negative in my little world and has given me the gusto to get where I am today. When I didn’t like living in Minnesota, I made the cross-country leap to California on sheer ambition. If I wasn’t happy at a job, I did something to fix it. I don’t just quit, like the motto may imply, I make it better.
I’m making something great out here. Between my blog, my job, my boo and my bubbies, there is quite a lot that keeps me going. So when a few internet trolls decided to bash me when Gap featured my recent post, I was a little surprised. It wasn’t my favorite photo, but it by no means looked like I “forgot to put on pants.”
Even though those people were clearly wrong and rude, it made me feel overly exposed and vulnerable. I felt self-conscious about the way that I looked, which made my already shaky body image (discussed here) take a nose dive. I had also gotten some bad family news earlier in the morning, and I was near defeat. I considered quitting blogging, because I definitely wasn’t enjoying the situation.
I’ve felt this way before (discussed here). Fact of the matter is, when you have your own editorial space, people will be critical. Mean, even. Worse, claim your material as their own.
But that’s the creative world. People will love what you do, people will hate what you do, or they’ll hate you for loving what you do. Anna, I totally get it now.
So, once again, I’m here to stay. I love what I do. And I’m working on getting tougher, because there is no reason for anyone to shake me.
And, as I said the last time I discussed this: shoutout to my haters, sorry that you couldn’t (really) faze me.
I am making it. Thank you for following along with my little space in the fashion world. Let’s make this werk.
Xo always, Sarah